一些学习笔记：
（一）功能性解离
解离这两年大家都知道了。功能性解离是最近学到的新词。
字面意义，功能性解离就是说解离习惯了就会变成功能性的，比如很容易就开上帝视角，客观看待事物，同时主观视角会消失，喜欢描述事实，很少讲自己的观点，尤其是情绪化的观点。再比如很擅长解析一件事一个人的不同面，对大多数人和事都表示理解。
1.这种方式和病理性的解离是不一样的，功能性解离不会导致对现实失去触觉和基本掌控。也就是说这件事本身是可控的。或者说大致上可控。[按我个人的经验来说，越熟练越可控。]
2.情绪并不是完全消失了，而是能够被精准地切割开来，包装起来。上帝视角可以清楚的分析这个情绪从哪儿来的是怎样的。做决定，或者工作等承担社会角色的时刻，会暂时把情绪放在一边。[顺便插一句，我现在面临的问题是情绪总被放在一边久而久之然后就逐渐消失了，有变成小机器人的趋势，所以我会定期给自己一些时间段看看特定电影，召回情绪。]
3.能感受到自己的身体是外壳，对疼痛，疲劳等身体信号反应迟钝。在激烈的情绪出现时，可能会引起不正常的生理表现，比如愤怒的时候不会颤抖不会哭毫无表现，比如压力山大的时候反而会微笑。抛去公共场合社交的时候也许会尴尬这一点，主要危险性在于，当身体负荷超出阈值的时候会突然挂掉，也就是前一秒还活蹦乱跳，下一秒直接倒下。解决办法也有，积累医学常识，养成习惯自我诊断，随时去医院。然后日常就是能歇着就歇着，该躺平就躺。
4.（无意识的）在不同场景中佩戴不同的面具，或者说使用完全不同的人设。比如说在工作状态，社交状态，独处状态时是性格完全不一样的人。
5.功能性解离重灾区：INTJ，INTP，ISTJ。欢迎大家对号入座。
6.跟精神分裂不一样，功能性解离的人在工作生活中都可以正常运作，也不会危害自己或他人。在旁人眼里他们大概就是稍微冷淡了点，或者有点距离感。
（二） 解离体验量表顺便贴一个解离体验的量表（资源外网，我自己随手翻译的），大概就是情况越严重越靠近病理性解离 – 这个量表并不区分是哪一种解离，解离和失忆的关联性导致有些问题甚至看起来像阿兹海默。Anyway，仅供参考。
1.在自行车或者开着车突然意识到自己一点也想不起来在刚刚过去的行驶过程中发生了什么。
2.正在听人说话的时候突然意识到，自己对刚才所谈的内容的全部或者某些部分完全没听到。
3.发现自己到了某个地方，却不知道是怎么来的。
4.突然注意到自己身上穿的衣服，却想不起来自己是怎么穿上这些衣服的。
5.在自己的东西中发现了一些新的东西，却回忆不起来这些是怎么来的。
6.有人在街上对自己打招呼，却发现自己并不认识这人。
7.有时会有这样的感觉，自己像是站在自己旁边，或者正在用第三人称视角看着自己在做些什么。
8.突然认不出自己的朋友或家人了。
9.想不起来生活中的重要事件比如说婚礼或者毕业典礼。
10. 确定自己没有撒谎，但别人却责备说自己在撒谎。
11. 照镜子的时候觉得自己很陌生。
12. 感觉周围的其他人，事物，乃至整个世界不真实。
13. 感觉身体不再属于自己了。
14. 在回忆一些经历过的事情的时候，会产生很强烈的体验，就好像再次经历了这件事一样。
15. 有时候分不清某些事情是自己真的经历过还是自己做的梦。
16. 有时候感觉自己曾经熟悉的地方突然变得陌生了。
17. 当太过专注投入某事时就感觉不到周围其他事物的存在了。
18. 在幻想和做白日梦的时候感觉特别强烈仿佛就像真的一样。
19. 似乎感觉不到疼痛了。
20. 有时候会呆呆地坐在那儿，既没有想任何事情，也感觉不到时间的流逝。
21. 在独处时跟自己说话（出声）。
22. 在不同场合的举止差别很大以至于感觉自己就像两个人。
23. 一些平时感觉到困难的事情却在特定的情景下能够轻松自然地完成。
24. 有时记不清某件事情是已经做了，还是只是想过要去做。
25. 从自己身边的变化感受到一定是发生了些什么，但对此却毫无印象。
26. 在自己的物品中发现笔记或图片，但却怎么也想不起来是怎么完成的。
27. 有时脑海中会有一个声音指导自己应该做什么，或对刚刚做过的事情加以评论。
28. 感觉自己好像是在透过一层雾在感知着这个世界。
（三）总结
解离本质上是一种防御性机制，可以让你在无意识中抵制/遗忘痛苦的情绪。无论是间隔型的解离（大脑把伤害你的记忆切割掉了），还是抽离型解离（大脑把情绪抽出体外），都是你的大脑在保护你。
解离也是一种比较普遍的心理状态，只有在比较极端或和其他心理疾病共生的时候才需要治疗。
解离不是问题，或者说最终需要被治疗的不是解离，而是引起解离的痛苦本身。所以说大脑是勤劳的大脑，在我没有意识的时候努力想办法保护我活下去。而我是懒惰摆烂的我，活着就挺好，并不想去解决已经被忘记的痛苦。
Some notes：
(I) Functional Dissociation
Dissociation has become widely known in the last two years. Functional dissociation is a new term I’ve recently learned.
Literally, functional dissociation means that once you become accustomed to it, it becomes functional. For example, you easily adopt a God’s-eye view, objectively observing things, while your subjective perspective disappears. You prefer describing facts and rarely express your own opinions, especially emotional ones. Another example is being adept at analyzing different aspects of a situation or person, and expressing understanding for most people and events.
- This approach is different from pathological dissociation. Functional dissociation does not lead to a loss of awareness or basic control over reality. In other words, the situation itself is controllable, or at least largely controllable. [In my personal experience, the more proficient you are, the more controllable you become.]
- Emotions don’t completely disappear; rather, they can be precisely segmented and packaged. A God’s-eye view allows for clear analysis of where the emotion comes from and what it is like. When making decisions or assuming social roles at work, emotions are temporarily set aside. [By the way, my current problem is that my emotions are often ignored and gradually disappear over time, making me feel like a little robot. So I periodically set aside time to watch specific movies to recapture those emotions.]
- I can feel that my body is just an outer shell, and I’m not very responsive to bodily signals like pain and fatigue. When intense emotions arise, it can cause abnormal physiological responses; for example, I might not tremble or cry when angry, or I might smile when under immense pressure. Aside from the potential embarrassment in public social situations, the main danger is that when the body’s load exceeds its threshold, it can suddenly collapse – one second I’m energetic, the next I’m dead. Solutions include accumulating medical knowledge, developing self-diagnosis habits, and going to the hospital regularly. Then, in daily life, rest whenever possible, and lie down whenever you feel like it.
- (Unconsciously) Wearing different masks or using completely different personas in different situations. For example, having completely different personalities at work, in social situations, and when alone.
- Highly affected by functional dissociation: INTJ, INTP, ISTJ. Welcome to identify with these descriptions.
- Unlike schizophrenia, people with functional dissociation can function normally in their work and daily life and will not harm themselves or others. To outsiders, they might just seem a little aloof or distant.
(II) Dissociation Experience Scale
By the way, here’s a dissociation experience scale (source: external website, translated by myself). The more severe the situation, the closer it is to pathological dissociation. This scale doesn’t distinguish between different types of dissociation. The correlation between dissociation and amnesia leads to some problems even resembling Alzheimer’s. Anyway, for reference only.
- While riding a bicycle or driving, you suddenly realize you can’t remember anything that happened during the ride.
- While listening to someone speak, you suddenly realize you didn’t hear any of the conversation, either entirely or partially.
- You find yourself in a certain place but don’t know how you got there.
- You suddenly notice the clothes you’re wearing but can’t remember how you put them on.
- Discovering new things among your belongings but unable to recall where they came from.
- Someone greets you on the street, but you realize you don’t recognize them.
- Sometimes having the feeling that someone is standing next to you, or watching you from a third-person perspective.
- Suddenly not recognizing your friends or family.
- Forgetting important events in your life, such as your wedding or graduation.
- Being certain you’re not lying, but others accuse you of lying.
- Feeling like a stranger when looking in the mirror.
- Feeling that other people, things, and even the world around you are unreal.
- Feeling like your body no longer belongs to you.
- Having a strong reliving of past experiences when recalling them.
- Sometimes being unable to distinguish between real experiences and dreams.
- Sometimes feeling that familiar places have suddenly become strange. 17. When so engrossed in something, I become oblivious to my surroundings.
- I feel a strong, almost real sense of daydreaming.
- I seem to lose the ability to feel pain.
- Sometimes I sit there blankly, thinking of nothing and oblivious to the passage of time.
- I talk to myself aloud when I’m alone.
- My behavior varies greatly in different situations, making me feel like two different people.
- Things that are usually difficult are accomplished easily and naturally in certain contexts.
- Sometimes I can’t remember whether I’ve actually done something or just thought about doing it.
- I sense that something has happened from changes around me, but I have no recollection of it.
- I find notes or pictures among my belongings, but I can’t remember how I wrote them.
- Sometimes a voice in my head guides me on what to do, or comments on things I’ve just done.
- I feel like I’m perceiving the world through a layer of fog.
(III) Summary
Dissociation is essentially a defense mechanism that allows you to unconsciously resist/forget painful emotions. Whether it’s intermittent dissociation (the brain cuts off the memories that hurt you) or detached dissociation (the brain extracts the emotions), it’s your brain protecting you.
Dissociation is also a relatively common psychological state, requiring treatment only in extreme cases or when it coexists with other mental illnesses.
Dissociation is not the problem, or rather, what ultimately needs to be treated is not dissociation itself, but the pain that causes it. So, the brain is a hardworking brain, trying its best to protect me and keep me alive when I’m unconscious. And I am a lazy, complacent me, content to just be alive and unwilling to address the forgotten pain.